NoFoodForTheFattie

I'm still alive....

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someone at my school:
i found your tumblr last night
me:
someone at my school:
me:
someone at my school:
me:
someone at my school:
me:
cop:
so are you telling me that she jumped off the bridge by accident?

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eveningfades:

cigarettes-and-speed:

s-kinnygames:

I just binged and purged the most spicy pot of noodles ever created in the world.
I passed out and landed on the floor and when I woke up my nose was bleeding and I’d convinced myself I had died.
People out there want this, they want bulimia, they want anorexia. And I cannot for the life of me understand why. I can feel my heart beat in my throat and in my finger tips, they’re freezing and they’re purple. My eyes can’t focus and I feel disgusting.
Waking up every day and having this same routing over and over and weighing yourself over and over watching it do nothing at all, but give different readings by lb’s is no way to live.
so you can all go play with your half an apple and diet coke, and wishing to be dying, but until your heart packs in and you have a cardiac arrest, which I have dealt with, you will never be able to understand the pain and fucking distress we go through. 

:( baby

):

eveningfades:

cigarettes-and-speed:

s-kinnygames:

I just binged and purged the most spicy pot of noodles ever created in the world.

I passed out and landed on the floor and when I woke up my nose was bleeding and I’d convinced myself I had died.

People out there want this, they want bulimia, they want anorexia. And I cannot for the life of me understand why. I can feel my heart beat in my throat and in my finger tips, they’re freezing and they’re purple. My eyes can’t focus and I feel disgusting.

Waking up every day and having this same routing over and over and weighing yourself over and over watching it do nothing at all, but give different readings by lb’s is no way to live.

so you can all go play with your half an apple and diet coke, and wishing to be dying, but until your heart packs in and you have a cardiac arrest, which I have dealt with, you will never be able to understand the pain and fucking distress we go through. 

:( baby

):

(via paperthinox)

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i genuinely am paranoid that everyone secretly hates me and thinks i am really really annoying and awful and is pretending to be my friend and it’s all part of some big joke

(Source: velvet-babe, via anorexic-soul)

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Me:
Maybe things will get better.
Self-Harm:
lol I'll visit you tonight then
Depression:
I'll make you sad.
Paranoia:
I'll make you feel like none of your friends like you.
Anxiety:
I'll give you a panic attack.
Trust:
I'll disappear for a while.
Happiness:
Come on bitch, I was just an illusion.
Scale:
How can things be better when you're still fat?
Mirror:
You're still ugly.
Mind:
Come on. It won't get better. You know better than that.
Me:
you're right...
Every-fucking-day!